real kicks.

the slug

No solicting

Have you ever met someone and feel like you guys are meant to be friends? Does that even make sense? If you've ever had that feeling then you probably know what I'm talking about but yeah that happened to me recently. I met this girl Rhaine at Michelle's thing I went to not long ago and she and her friend came and talked to me and Emma and they were saying how they didn't know anyone so they were just gonna hang out with me so it won't be to awkward. Something like that, and we talked for awhile and blah blah blah. But then I saw her again last night at the mormon dance and hung out some more and I don't for some reason I feel like if I she went to our school or if I saw her more ofen I think we'd be really good friends. As in like best friends. And I know none of this makes sense but in my head it does! But I don't know hopefully I'll get to see her every once in awhile or something cause she's really nice. And nice people rock.

birth...

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!!?!?

next chapter

Hi. I haven't talked about my love life for like 6 months. Mainly because I don't have one. I don't even know if this counts. But this is pretty much exactly how I'm feeling. And I hate myself for it.

The Story of Us by Taylor Swift.

I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us

how we met and the sparks flew instantly

And people would say they're the luck ones.

I used to know my place was a spot next to you,

now I'm searching the room for an empty seat

cause lately I don't even know what page you're on

Oh, a simple complication, miscommunications lead to fallout,

So many things that I wish you knew,

So many walls up I can't break through

(Chorus):

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking

And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me?

I don't know what to say since the twist of fate, when it all broke down

And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now

Next chapter

How'd we end upp this way?

See me nervously pulling at my clothes and tryin' to look busy

And you're doing your best to avoid me

I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us

of how I was losing my mind min when I saw you here

And you held your pride like you should've held me,

Oh I'm scared to see the ending, why are we pretending, this is nothing?

I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how,

I've never heard silence quite this loud

(Chorus)

This is looking like a contest, of who can act like they care less,

But I liked it better when you were on my side

The battle's in your hands now, cause I would lay my armor down,

If you said you'd rather love than fight

So many things that you wish I knew,

but the story of us might be ending soon

(Chorus)

And we're not speaking,

and I'm dying to know is it killin' you like it's killing me yeah

And I don't know what to say since the twist of fate, cause we're going down

And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now

The End.

school...

School started on Monday. I want to cry. I hate it, I really do. Its nice to see people agin, well MOST people. But I hate waking up at 6 and getting the idea of how hard your classes will be and EVERYTHING. The thing I hate he most? For my final in Film Study I have to make my own movie from scratch that's 15-20 minutes long with a few other people. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! 15 to 20 minutes?? WHY? I can't do it. Yes I'm complaining, I'm stressed out.Oh my godh I can't do this. I really can't.

tweats!

So guess what? I FINALLY got my license today! Well I passed the test yesterday and went to the DMV today. Anywoo I can't explain the feeling of your first drive by yourself. SO AMAZING. I blasted Taylor Swift and was singing my heart out. Best feeling everrrr. Anyhoe today was the mystery trip and we went on a wolf tour. It was quite intresting hah. I think that's all so you know what it's time for?! FRIDAY FAVORITES!!!

Favorite Laugh:

Favorite Wedding Dress:

Favorite Bed:

just the way you are

Ted and Mo- THANK YOU. The blog and message meant the world to me, I can't put into words how grateful I am. It's just what I needed to hear to make me realize how it's almost crazy to even think such things. And to look past all the silly little flaws and to see the real me. The beautiful me. And to help me see that freaking out about boys is insane, at this age they're immature and only want one thing anyway right? Ted please text me the titles of those books they sound really good!!! AND thanks to Mo I've decided to dedicate my senior year to expierment with pretty and somewhat fashionable outfits everyday. Wear the 10 dresses I have hanging in my closet with price tags still attached. Because don't you think the day is always better when you're wearing a great outfit? But of course I'll probably have a few days when I need to wear my comfy sweats! I'll find a way to make them fashionable :) Once again, Teddi and Maureen thank you so much, and I hope that you know I think you guys are some of the most beautiful and gorgeous people I know, inside and out. And I promise I'm not just saying this. You truly are. You're my favorite type of pretty: the natural pretty mixed with the happy pretty. You know that Audrey Hepburn quote "The happiest girls are the prettiest girls"? Yeah that's you guys.

we're all sinking

What if you don't like what you see in the mirror? When you were finally feeling confident and beautiful but then you just hit rock bottom again, feeling insecure and ugly. I hate the world we live in. Feeling like there's always something you can do to make yourself look better. Always something to fix. I hate looking in the mirror and pointing out all the things I hate. I hate feeling like I'll never be pretty or that I'll never be loved. It takes a pretty big hit on your self esteem when you're 17 and never been kissed, never had a boyfriend. It sucks. I've never truly felt....pretty.

happy birthday daddy!

Day 10: 10 Things You Love

1. The Shaytards
2. Shopping
3. Baking
4. Weddings
5. Getting really into a book
6. The holiday season
7. Taylor Swift
8. Taking pictures
9. Country music
10. Immature moments with friends

There's so many things I love I can't just pick 10! Anyhoe, wanna know somehting really lame? I spent most of my day yesterday working out on my Wii Fit. I haven't used it in forever so I thought well hey, why not? And I'm actually sore from it! But that means it worked right? I hope so! After that I ate McDonalds so working out was pretty much pointless hah. And then I FINALLY hung out with Katey Cox! We just went to a fro-yo place called Red Mango and got some smoothies (I gota pomergrante one!) then we went to Ross cause she needed athletic shorts but we never found any. And then she stopped at a friends house and it was really awkward except I actually knew a few people there so it wasn't to bad...I guess. And guess what!! I got my Phineas and Ferb shoes!!! They're so freaking cool! They're a little big but I don't care! I freaking love them with all my heart! I just need to find that waterproof spray for shoes...Yeah I think that's it. Except it's my dad's birthday! WHOOOOOO! Happy Birthday Father!!

wild chipmunk

Day 9: 10 Things You Absolutely Hate

1. Sound of cracking knuckles
2. Running
3. Drama
4. MTV being blocked on my TV
5. Going back to school
6. Mean people
7. Brusies. They freak me out
8. When I KNOW I'm right and someone thinks I'm wrong
9. Cramps
10. Not going to the family reunion

Some of my family posted pictures from this years family reunion and it made me really sad. I miss them so much! If I could only go on one trip for the whole summer it'd be the reunion. We better go next year or else I'm gonna punch someone. Anyhoe yesterday I went to Lakeside with my oyuth group. Nobody really came though so it wasn't as fun. It's just weird cause everybody that I was friends with is gone cause they graduated so it sucks. Oh well. Don't know what I'm gonna do today, maybe go to Lifetime again. Maybe find some friends. Who knows! But hopefully I'll make this last week of summer the best yet!

one week.

Day 8: 10 of Your Favorite Bands or Artists (in no particular orer)

1. Taylor Swift
2. The Summer Set
3. Justin Bieber!
4. Selena Gomez
5. Zac Brown Band
6. Glee Cast
7. Brad Paisley
8. Keith Urban
9. Christina Perri
10. Katy Perry

Yayyy music! Nothing is going to happen today as far as I know. Probably some driving and watching Tv. You know the usual. Which is sad because I basically have ONE WEEK left of summer. Shiz. I gotta make this last week awesome. Do something everyday with my good ol friends! And get some more footage for the summer video. I onlyhave stuff from like four days out of the whole summer...hah. Anyhoe I'm gonna go now. I'll let you know if anything intresting happens today! hah

rasberry soccer ball

Day 7: 10 of Your Favorite People

1. Taylor Swift
2. Selena Gomez
3. Shay Carl & The Shaytards (I'm counting them as one)
4. Ellen Degeneres
5. Liz Lee
6. Emma Stone
7. Mila Kunis
8. Kristen Wiig
9. All the characters on Friends (I can't pick just one)
10. Katey Cox

So I hope they meant famous people instead of people I actually know...except I know Katey Cox. But she's famous in my heart. hah creepyyyy nah she's just my favorite person eva. To cool for school, that one. Anyhoe, I finally got my senior pictures taken today! I think they turned out real swell! I look awkward in some and my hair was frizzy but she can edit that right? Hah it was a blast, I'm really glad I ended up having her aunt do it instead of professionals. So yeah after I hung out at Taylor's house me and my dad went driving and while I was driving a hacking SPIDER came out of no where and started dangling in my face. And as you know I hate spiders just like 99% of the world and I was freaking out and didn't know what to do. My dad didn't really help me, he just swatted my hair a few times and laughed at me. I honestly don't know how we didn't crash. One of the top 10 scariest moments of my life. OK BYE!

my nubs bring all the boys to the yard

Day 6: 10 Things About Your Friends

1. We hardly ever hang out with eachother all at once
2. We used to hate when there were little groups inside the group but we're kind of over that now
3. We often purchase a baguette of bread and eat it plain
4. If it's a nice day we'll eat lunch outside, even some don't want to (usually me)
5. It's been the same group of friends since freshman year minus one
6. I don't know how I'm gonna live without them next year
7. You'd never think we'd all be friends, we're really different
8. They're some of the funniest people I know. They can make me laugh until it hurts
9. We love girl talks. We'll go around in a circle sharing everything that's on our mind. Usually boys. Shocker right?
10. We think of the weirdest things to do

So I slept over at Teddi's house and we watched Soul Surfer. I liked it mucho. We spent the night singing songs and replacing lyrics with the word nub. We're horrible people. We laughed for pretty much an hour straight. Then we picked up Taylor and went to scheduling. So we handed in everything and all that and got our schedules! I like my schedule, it should be more fun than hard which is always nice. After that we went to Qdoba and Colstone. Mmm mm good. Went to my house and watched Pretty Little Liars. The ended was so freaking creepy!!!! We went to the dino park and had a blasty blast like always. And yeah I think that's it. THE END!

meet me under the ihop sign

Day 5: 10 Things About Your Family

1. We have reunions every year. I don't get to go to all of them but they're kind of my favorite thing in the world.
2. My uncle's childhood stories rock. I cry from laughing to hard when they tell them. I could listen to them all day.
3. Most of us have blue eyes. The cool ones anyhoe
4. Most of them live in the Wisconsin and Michigan area
5. They have cool nicknames for eachother. Examples: Uncle Dood and Uncle Chummy
6. We're Polish and proud of it!!
7. The Jerzyk signature meal is beans, weens, and cottage cheese. Don't judge unless you've had it, it wouldn't be our signature meal if it was disgusting.
8. The cousins all plan to get a tattoo of the letter J. I really hope this happens cause that'd be awesome on so many levels.
9. We're religous but not like the crazy religous people. You know what I mean?
10. I LOVE THEM WITH ALL MY HEART.

Yeah so I decided to do it about my dad's side of the family causeI thought it'd be more interesting than listing off things about my parents and two sisters. Anyhoe tonight I'm FINALLY taking a zumba class! I'm so hacking excited! I'm going with Carina and maybe Renee. Then me and Taylor are sleeping over atTeddi's because tomorrow we have scheduling. Yayyyyy NOT. I can't believe it's at 8:30 am! I mean seriously how rude! Okie dokie I'm gonna take a shower now. Later gators.

awkward moments

So I just have 2 quick things: Today I was practing driving and I drove to my dad's work so he could get his laptop so I just stayed in the parking lot listening to the radio. And I started dancing for the heck of it and as I was getting really into it I looked to my left and I saw these people in a van watching me and laughing. I was embarrassed but kept dancing anyhoe cause it was really fun. The other thing- remember how I said I was insecure about smiling with my teeth? Well one of the reasonswas because I pretty much close my eyes when I do and I always thought I looked chinease but then a few things helped realize it's fine and I shouldn't care about something so silly. 1) There's a dancer on So You think You Can Dance that when she smiles she smiles really big so her eyes close too but it looks cute because she's one of those adorable people you know? So yeah I was like "ok it clearly happens to other people too" 2) A song came on the radio and it was one of those songs where they list things they love about them and one was "she closes her eyes when she smiles" or something like that and that was kind of like "ok clearly some guys like that and think it's cute so why you so stupid? " 3) Ted's blog on insecurites also helped. You should check it out. So yeah clearly the world is telling me to get over it. Mmkay that's all.

take my hand

Day 4: 10 of Your Favorite Foods

1. Renee's mom's ceaser salad pizza
2. Mac and cheese
3. Doughnuts
4. Phish Food ice cream
5. Watermelon
6. Nuetella with bananas
7. 6 cheese bagel toasted with honey butter
8. Subway (6 inch ham on italian bread with american cheese, lettuce and ranch)
9. Superman ice cream (I can't find it anywhere though!!!)
10. In -N-Out burger. YUM

So yeah 90% is junk food. I needto start eating healthy don't I? But I mean I might as well eat as much as I can before my metabolism gets slower right? Anyhoe I finished the Pretty Little Liars book and holy cow it was AMAZING. Emily's secret made my jaw drop, I did NOT see that coming. And the next one comes out so soon! December 6th! Holla!!!! I LOVE BOOKS BECAUSE I'M COOL. So it's August. Awesome. NOT. Wednesday we get our schedules so that's just super, and go school supply shopping this weekend. Ok I'm actually am excited for that...it's my favorite part of going back to school. My driving test is the 11th, I'm really scared. I think I'll pass but I don't think I'm ready to drive on my own. I really don't know what I'm doing. But yeah that's all for now. Ta ta!

Quote of the Day" Choose to shine"